One-sided Love

There’s only pain that I see

Yearning to tell you the love I conceive

Been two years already

Keeping it, is not so easy

TULISAN KAHLIL GIBRAN FAVORITKU

Sesaat lagi engkau akan tahu perbedaan halus,

Antara bergandengan tangan dan merantai jiwa

Kau akan tahu bahwa cinta bukan berarti sandaran,

Dan teman bukan berarti rasa aman

Dan kau akan tahu bahwa ciuman bukanlah kontrak,

Dan hadiah bukanlah janji

Dan kau akan mulai menerima kekalahan

Dengan kepala tegak dan mata terbuka

Dengan kebesaran hati seorang dewasa

Bukan dengan kemurungan anak-anak

Dan kau akan belajar membangun semua jalanmu hari ini

Karena besok tak pasti untuk rencana

Sesaat lagi kau akan tahu

Bahwa sinar matahari bisa membakar bila menerimanya terlalu banyak

Karena itu tanamilah kebunmu sendiri

Dan hiasi jiwamu sendiri

Daripada menunggu seseorang memberimu bunga

Dan kau akan tahu

Bahwa kau sungguh-sungguh dapat memikul beban

Bahwa kau benar-benar kuat

Dan kau benar-benar mampu

Dan kau benar-benar berharga

Sahabat adalah kebutuhan jiwa yang mesti terpenuhi

Dialah ladang hati yang kau taburi dengan kasih

Dan kau panen dengan penuh rasa cinta

Dan dia pulalah naungan dan penghangatmu

Karena engkau menghampirinya saat lapar

Dan saat tubuh butuh kedamaian

Apabila dia bicara mengungkapkan pikirannya

Engkau tiada takut berbisik kata ‘tidak’

Kau juga tiada menyembunyikan kata ‘ya’

Dan tiada maksud lain dari persahabatan

Kecuali saling memperkaya roh kejiwaan

Karena kasih masih menyisakan pamrih dalam jangkauan misterinya

Bukanlah kasih tetapi sebuah jala yang ditebar

Hanya menangkap yang tiada diharap

Dan persembahkanlah yang terindah bagi sahabatmu

Jika dia harus tahu musim surutmu,

Biarlah dia mengenal pula musim pasangmu

TEACHING PRACTICUM DI DEPAN MATA…

Sebentar lagi bulan September tiba, perkuliahan memasuki semester ke-7. Haduhh,, tidak terasa sudah 3 tahun lebih ya, kurang setahun lagi lulus (AMIN) dari sini. Kok seperti baru kemarin aku ikut PPMB dan MaKrab, tapi sekarang sudah di ambang pintu keluar… Setahun memang bukan waktu yang singkat, tetapi rasanya akan menjadi sangat cepat ketika sudah menyibukkan diri dengan tugas kuliah…terutama Teaching Practicum (PPL) >>.<<

Aku jadi teringat dulu waktu semasa masih SMA, ada kakak angkatan FBS yang praktik mengajar di sekolahku, sungguh menjadi seperti mereka bukan hal yang mudah. Dikritik, dicaci, dijahati, dibantah, dan hal-hal jahil lain oleh teman-temanku. Membuat kesalahan sedikit saja, pasti dibantai habis-habisan… Tak terbayangkan kalau sekarang aku akan ada di posisi mereka?! Oh God, sekilas terdengar konyol kalau kita merasa takut mengajar anak SMA, secara kita lebih dewasa (bukan tua) dan lebih berpengalaman dari mereka, tetapi apa daya kalau memang sudah bermasalah dengan ‘kepercayaan diri’ selama ini???

In fact, to be honest, I’m not really into teaching since it requires us to be smart, fun, and kind-enough to share our knowledge. Gosh, feel like I’m on the contrary, hikss… But what else to do when you realize that being a teacher is actually suits you?? What I meant here is when you figured this as one of main opportunities you seek after graduate; don’t you think you will consider it??? Yes of course I do. Although this seemingly-perfect-job would be hard, at least I’m trying, I’M TRYING…okay?

Jadi, mau tidak mau, harus berusaha untuk mengatasi kekurang-percayaan diri ini dan berlatih sebanyak-banyaknya untuk mendapat hasil sebaik-baiknya. Haduhhh… teori memang sangat mudah dipelajari dan diucapkan, namun perwujudannya sangatlah sulit apabila tidak dibarengi dengan tekad yang bulat.

Hmmm,,, lebay gak sih bicara begini???  :P

But guys,,, if you think you can help me to escape from those feeling, you may share…please pretty please?? I’m begging, hahahahhahaha…

Just A Dream - Nelly

(Uh uh uh)
I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream...
So I travel back (uh) down that road (road) Will she come back? (Uh) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream.
I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement I swear now I can't take it Knowing somebody's got my baby
Now you ain't around, baby I can't think I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring Cuz I can still feel it in the air See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair My love of my life, My shawty, my wife She left me, Im tied. Cuz I knew that it just ain't right
I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream...
So I travel back (Uh) Down that road (Yeah) Will she come back? (back) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream.
When I be ridin' man I swear I see your face at every turn [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/just-a-dream-lyrics-nelly.html ] Trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn And I just hope she know that she the only one I yearn for More and more, I miss her, when will I learn? Didn't give her all my love I guess now I got my payback Now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby HEY, she was so easy to love But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone And now I'm wishin' wishin' she'd pick up the phone But she made a decision that she wanted to move on Cause I was wrong.
I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream...
So I travel back (Uh) Down that road (road) Will she come back? (back) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up If you ever loved somebody put your hands up And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything X2
I was thinking about her Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us) What we gunna be? Open my eyes, (Yeah) it was only just a dream...
So I travel back (Uh) Down that road (road) Will she come back? (back) No one knows I realize (Yeah) It was only just a dream... X2

Copied from MetroLyrics.com

Now just let us replace the word “she” with “he”

Gosh, sekarang benar-benar merasa seperti itu setelah tahu kenyataan yang ada, sesuai dengan lirik lagu di atas L I was the one who left him now he got the replacement and I’m feeling like I don’t even let it that way… And of course I have a reason, I don’t blame him, yet he made me to do that for the sake of our situation (distance, parents and bla bla bla). Who says that it was easy? Now I got a lump in my throat, choked up until I cry.. Man, still damn hurts…